Breaking up is hard to do ... except when the break up is with you.
It
is no secret that we aren't as close as we used to be. It's no secret
that we don't talk anymore, that I don't know you anymore. It's no
surprise that you have no idea why. You are so self absorbed and always
only worried about what you think that I would bet you think we both
just got busy.
"We" didn't get busy. I just stopped
doing all of the work that goes into having a real relationship because I
realized that you suck. You have always had these great ambitions and
everyone was expected to jump on board with you or face being condemned
because they had the audacity to try to hold you back. Trust me,
darling - they weren't trying to hold you back from your dreams, they
were trying to hold you back from yourself. You want to think of
yourself as a free spirit - I think of you as a flake.
You
had no interest in being there for me, no interest in being my best
friend, no interest in knowing me & growing with me and holding up
your end of the bargain and for that reason - I dumped you. You add
nothing to my life, you take and take only to give me a glimmer of hope
that you're going to start to pull your own weight, but at the end of
the day, you're not - you won't - and you'll never have to. You'll be
lucky enough to find someone else to tow your load, stroke your ego and
deal with your bullshit for the next decade & I honestly feel sorry
for her. She doesn't deserve the truckload of shit you're about to ask
her to spoon feed herself.
For the record, I don't
even hate you and aside from an eye roll, I don't give you much of a
thought. Occasionally, I take a trip down memory lane and remember how
much of an impact we had on each other's lives. A solid 80% of my
memories from age 16-21 involved you and they were happy, they were fun -
they will be forever cherished. Unfortunately, a MEMORY isn't reason
enough for me to try anymore. I'll think of your face when I hear an
anthem that pulls me back to high school & I'll be happy enough to
catch up with you at a class reunion in five years.
But
not today. Today you hurt my best friend. Today you and your
carelessness caused her pain and like the rest of us, she has decided
that it's not worth addressing with you - she's probably right - it
would likely fall on deaf ears. Today I was reminded why I have been
done with you for over a year now. I can only hope that she figures out
it's time that she tells you no to put herself first for ONCE and that
she drops you like a used condom on a saturday night. I did. It feels
GREAT. Best of luck in the future!
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This is perfect and 100% accurate.
ReplyDeleteI love you, thank you for showing me what a real best friend is suppose to be like. I am so thankful to have you in my life and I am so glad we are friends, not like there is a choice in the matter, by now, you know too much. At this point, us breaking up involves a shovel, a big ass hole and a body bag. Love to you my darling bestie frestie!